Sarah Kay Hoffman http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com Finding beauty in the dust of life's gravelroads Mon, 15 Jan 2018 11:52:12 +0000 en-US hourly 1 https://wordpress.org/?v=4.9.1 http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/wp-content/uploads/2016/08/cropped-SKH2-32x32.jpg Sarah Kay Hoffman http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com 32 32 45930907 Two http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/2018/01/15/two/ http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/2018/01/15/two/#respond Mon, 15 Jan 2018 11:17:00 +0000 http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/?p=35858 Two is hard. And for me, this two, in this season, right now, is really hard. On Saturday, after quite the morning, I decided that Sunday would be dedicated to Isaiah. I wasn’t sure what we do or for how long, but I did know that spending time with him, just he and I, was an […]

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Two is hard.

And for me, this two, in this season, right now, is really hard.

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On Saturday, after quite the morning, I decided that Sunday would be dedicated to Isaiah. I wasn’t sure what we do or for how long, but I did know that spending time with him, just he and I, was an absolute.

Sunday morning I woke up and Googled, “owatonna mn kids activities.” Barely anything popped up, except for this place (that actually my nanny had told me about last week, too) called, “RAD Zoo.” Rad = you think that’s all cute and fun, and rad, yes? Well look, here’s what RAD stands for: Reptile and Amphibian Discovery. 

I chose not to view their website before going because I didn’t want to know. Ignorance is bliss y’all. In this situation, ignorance is just bliss.

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So, late morning, I loaded Samarah and Isaiah in the car. My MIL stayed home with Amiya (she’s still battling a rotten cold), and I dropped Samarah off with Ba ‘Ngoai. (To be clear this is my Godmother, Lan, who I talk about all the time here – we refer to her often as Ba ‘Ngoai because that’s grandma in Vietnamese. She’s one of my most favorite people in the entire world, and now that we’re back in Minnesota, she’ll be talked about a ton. Trust me, you’re going to love her!)

Isaiah and I headed out of our sleepy, little town to another fairly sleepy, little town called Owatonna, MN. Our first stop was to Target, and instead of making it a mama day for perusing all the aisles, I went in with three missions: a birthday card for my dad (tomorrow!), regular + fingerless mittens, and a choo-choo train for Isaiah (because that’s what he wanted).

After Target, I went through the Caribou drive through to grab a latte, and then we rolled up to the RAD Zoo. We walked in, I paid our fee, and off we went. Isaiah ran up to every single cage/aquarium and pointed -> “Turtle, mommy.” He ran from reptile-to-reptile, and because he is an antsy pants, didn’t stay with any one reptile for more than 30 seconds.

Meanwhile, I felt nauseous. I assumed there would be a few snakes and then several other reptiles, but it felt like the entire place was only snakes. I told my mom there must have been more than 20, and according to this, I was right. Guys, there was an anaconda there – a freaking anaconda. I. Could. Have. Died.

But Isaiah loved it.

Just prior to leaving, one of the worker’s brought out a snake for the kids to “pet.” It may have been the Eastern Milk Snake, but I’m not positive. Anyways, Isaiah walked right up. I told him, “Go for it, buddy, but mommy is going to stay back here and watch you.” He loved “petting” it – OMG – but when he started tugging its tail, I freaked a little and said, “annnnnnnd done.” 

But Isaiah loved it.

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We purelled the heck out of his hands, and then it was time to go.

I loaded him into the car, we got groceries, a chocolate shake for my dad (don’t ask), and finally spent a little time at my parent’s house before heading home for the day.

Two

This is the face of a little boy who is incredibly adorable.

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And yesterday with Isaiah was a really awesome day with just the two of us. 

Two has been so hard for me during this transition and change. And while I’m not going to sugarcoat the realities of the day-to-day with two, transition, and change, I learned something yesterday.

I didn’t want to see the reptiles, but Isaiah did, and if you want the truth, I didn’t even want to do the day at all. 

But I felt it deep down that Isaiah needed it

So I did the day, went through the motions, and did all the things that made Isaiah happy while knowing he was loved.

And what happened was that together, he and I had a wonderful day together. I actually, truly, and 100% loved spending the whole day with just my two-year-old little man. He was so good and so happy, and even the rest of the night when we got home, he thrived in ways he hasn’t for several days now. 

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I realized that this transition and change and everything currently happening in my life is no excuse to not honor many of those same things happening for two (and one, and four, and – well – I can’t tell you how old Ryan is because it may or may not almost be over the hill 🙂 ).

Isaiah needs things right now that I have not been giving to him, namely my time and undivided attention. Having a one, two, and four-year-old while going through massive change is not easy, but I must help them embrace change as much as I’m trying to help myself do it.

However, there must be a better way to do it than to ever have to go back to the RAD Zoo. Like ever. (Also, did I just write almost a whole post kind-of-sort-of focused on snakes and include two snake pictures? Who have I even become?!)

p.s. SKOL Vikings. You knew I had to throw this in here.

Xox,
SKH

If you don’t have time to read these posts daily, but don’t want to miss them, be sure to follow via Bloglovin’ and/or join my personal e-newsletter HERE. I am doing my best to send a once per week email recap of prior week’s posts.

These posts will all live under “Wellness+Lifestyle” and also tagged with “101 Days of Blogging.” The 101-day series runs from Monday, January 8, 2018, through Wednesday, April 18, 2018.

If there is a topic surrounding change that you would love for me to include in this series, please just CONTACT ME.

Previous 101-Day Change Series Posts

  1. Beginnings are Scary
  2. Change Pain Point
  3. Making Sense of Change
  4. Gratitude Journal
  5. Love Your Baby Girl
  6. Little Things Add Up
  7. House and Home
  8. Sunday Reflections

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I received an email from a reader yesterday and decided that throughout this series at the very least, Sundays would be less work and focused more on Sunday reflections – things from the previous week that keep me knowing this 101-day series on change is making a difference…..for you and for me.

Work, Work, Work

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I won’t lie. I spent a lot of Saturday and Sundays, while living in California, working. Not both days and all day, but I’d definitely crank out as much as I could, whenever I could, between the two days.

If you’ve read my blog for any length of time you know why. It’s because I love work, and because it rarely feels like work to me and more like a hobby, I’m constantly wanting to hang out with it. (Side note: My mom still asks, “What do you do? I just never know what to tell people when they ask me.” For the sake of pure convenience these days, I just stick with two words: Content Producer. “But then,” I always tell her, “If that is still too blurry, just say, Marketing.” It always comes back to Marketing. Mmmmmmkay?!)

Anyways, last Sunday before heading to the mall with my cousin, I realized how little I’ve been doing – from a work standpoint – on the weekends, since moving back. In fact, I commented on it to Kim (my cousin), saying, “I have worked almost nothing on the weekends compared to before.” She immediately said, “Well you can – I can watch the kids.” And I replied, “No. Not my point. I don’t want to. This is awesome!”

Let me be clear. Yes, yes I’m still working from that 4am – 6/7am time slot on Saturday and Sundays because that’s my time when it feels like I’m the only person in the entire world who is awake. But once the day begins, and I have people to hang out with (+ little souls to cater to), the desire to work all day isn’t quite there anymore.

Every single weekend there has been something going on, people to hang out with, and things to do, and the best part is that I haven’t even begun to spend time with friends or really even Ryan for that matter (he is coming to “visit” tomorrow, though, and I can’t wait – like at all – not even a little bit!). 

Sunday Reflections

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As I sat down to write this post this morning, I thought about what an undertaking from a “work” standpoint writing every single day for 101-days truly is. In fact, I alluded to it via my private and personal e-newsletter last week (click HERE to sign up so you never miss them),

This past Monday the official “change series” ie. 101-days of blogging began.

That first day I wrote about how beginnings are scary. The context was different than what I’m talking about right now – at 5 am.

For me, this whole series is scary. Why? Because it’s 101-days of writing and producing every single day while living and adjusting to this huge change.

Like on Tuesday, I had the flu. It was a super mild version, but after I threw up (just once), I thought, “Have I taken on more than I can handle by committing to writing and producing every single day for 101 days?”

Honestly? I don’t know the answer to that question.

Here’s what I do know.

This series is a mammoth undertaking for me. It’s almost 1/3 of a year and a big commitment. And yet what I learned last year about fear is that our fears are rarely ever substantiated, and by the time we face the fear right in its eyes, the fear has passed and something wonderful has emerged.

So today when I wrote, “Little Things Add Up,” I was reminded that this 101-day series is also a little thing. And it’s going to add up in beautiful ways…..I just know it.

Between the ah-ha of knowing this series is going to add up in beautiful ways, but also recognizing the need for more space on the weekends with less work – I decided to just share something from a reader each Sunday during the series that is a reflection of the hard work I’m putting into producing and sharing. 

Reader Email

Well, my dream did not come true hahaha. Let me explain. I dreamt a year or so ago that my husband and I went to your house in California for a visit. I know, completely random but you must have been in my thoughts that day I had the dream. From your move back home I can assume we will probably not meet in CA.

I want to let you know I am sorry for your dad’s diagnosis. If I was an in-person friend, I would give you a strong and fierce hug. Today an e hug is what I will give.

I am still reading along with you. Life for us is good. Husband is great, kids are healthy and mostly happy so that, of course, makes me a very happy momma. I am also working for a smallish company 4 days per week. Busy, kind of crazy sometimes. I still teach fitness classes as well which is so fulfilling. Helping people for 1 hour in their day to feel good about life, moving, smiling and doing hard things is so amazing.

You sharing your thoughts and life journey is a gift to me and many others I can tell. I am grateful for you. I give myself permission to take a moment during the day to check your website and then reflect on your writings. Thank you for these moments.

Much love,
*reader*

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I hope you’ll enjoy Sundays with me….the reflections, and the permission to do less and enjoy life with whomever and however makes you happiest.

Xox,
SKH

If you don’t have time to read these posts daily, but don’t want to miss them, be sure to follow via Bloglovin’ and/or join my personal e-newsletter HERE. I am doing my best to send a once per week email recap of prior week’s posts.

These posts will all live under “Wellness+Lifestyle” and also tagged with “101 Days of Blogging.” The 101-day series runs from Monday, January 8, 2018, through Wednesday, April 18, 2018.

If there is a topic surrounding change that you would love for me to include in this series, please just CONTACT ME.

Previous 101-Day Change Series Posts

  1. Beginnings are Scary
  2. Change Pain Point
  3. Making Sense of Change
  4. Gratitude Journal
  5. Love Your Baby Girl
  6. Little Things Add Up
  7. House and Home

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House and Home http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/2018/01/13/house-and-home/ http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/2018/01/13/house-and-home/#respond Sat, 13 Jan 2018 11:32:47 +0000 http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/?p=35831 Yesterday I felt a deep sting in my gut, and with the sting, I kept playing over-and-over in my head the differences between house and home. It wasn’t that long ago when the sign went up for the first time. Ryan and I both said that day, “Well, now it’s getting real.” Coming Soon At […]

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Yesterday I felt a deep sting in my gut, and with the sting, I kept playing over-and-over in my head the differences between house and home.

It wasn’t that long ago when the sign went up for the first time. Ryan and I both said that day, “Well, now it’s getting real.”

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Coming Soon

At night, Ryan and I would box things up and put things into various piles, “Sell, Throw, Donate.” We used Ceci’s room (my favorite room in the house) as the dump area for all the things, which to be honest, I hated, because that last month I was in California, I didn’t get to enjoy the room – at all. 

But little-by-little, we began cleaning things out of the house. “Stuff” was reduced, pictures taken down, and then for me, clothes organized so that the movers could just come in and box it up. (And please let me be clear here – Ryan did almost everything else. Everything. I’m not taking my job back here with all three littles lightly, but what he’s been doing is typical of Ryan – above and beyond.)

The morning I left California for good, I went out to our porch to put my shoes on. I sat there for about 5 minutes, one last time. I was trigged to crying like a child. I felt so sadThe Moments I Live For Front Porch Mornings sarahkayhoffman.com

I will never forget how we landed upon that house. We knew we had to move because our family was going to grow (just prior to getting Isaiah). But the house we really wanted, fell through. And then, by pure chance and luck, this house popped up. 

It was in a community we had only heard of once or twice, but that day, immediately upon driving into it, we were sold. We saw the house, with our porch, and huge open spaces inside and I think it was only a day or two later (maybe even day of), when we put in a bid for it.

For the next 2+ years, we made so many incredible memories there. Post-Adoption Thoughts sarahkayhoffman.com Samarah, Isaiah, Amiya Sept 9 2017

And on my last day in California, all of those memories danced through my mind. 

I cried as I walked through every room one last time, and cried horribly ugly tears as we drove away.

For Sale

This past Monday the movers came. 

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Once the house was cleared out, we had it cleaned and then our realtor came, and took pictures.

Yesterday morning, Ryan sent me the link to the house listing

I have only been able to look at it one time so far because it still doesn’t seem real…..that it’s empty (and clean – ha!), and that for Ryan and I, it has now become a house – no longer a home.

House and Home

I have told people many times since leaving that if we could have taken that house and moved it to Minnesota, we probably would have.

We loved that house, and we made it our home.

But today, today it is no longer a home for Ryan, Samarah, Isaiah, Amiya, Reagan, and I. 

Today it is on the market as 1287 Remington Court (for sale). She is ready to be a home for a new family.

We are still getting ready to embrace our next home, and what I will tell you is that we currently have two houses lined up – one of which will be temporary and one permanent – like forever, forever. (When the time is right, I’ll share about both of them. I promise, especially because our forever home has a history so rich I still pinch myself almost daily over it.)

The temporary house will feel more like a house than home, but what Ryan reminds me of all the time is that we will make it our home because home is truly where the heart is and where all the people you love most in the world reside.

It’s why we came back “home” to Minnesota, to Waseca. 

And it’s why, despite the sting of letting go of our California home, I do know deep down that that home is now just a house.

It’s just a house.

p.s. The faster our house in California sells, the better because I want Ryan back ASAP. The open house is today and tomorrow from 1-4pm PST. You can find the listing HERE, and if you’re in California and are looking for a home or know someone who is, please pass along the link and/or this post. 

Xox,
SKH

If you don’t have time to read these posts daily, but don’t want to miss them, be sure to follow via Bloglovin’ and/or join my personal e-newsletter HERE. I am doing my best to send a once per week email recap of prior week’s posts.

These posts will all live under “Wellness+Lifestyle” and also tagged with “101 Days of Blogging.” The 101-day series runs from Monday, January 8, 2018, through Wednesday, April 18, 2018.

If there is a topic surrounding change that you would love for me to include in this series, please just CONTACT ME.

Previous 101-Day Change Series Posts

  1. Beginnings are Scary
  2. Change Pain Point
  3. Making Sense of Change
  4. Gratitude Journal
  5. Love Your Baby Girl
  6. Little Things Add Up

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Little Things Add Up http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/2018/01/12/little-things-add-up/ http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/2018/01/12/little-things-add-up/#respond Fri, 12 Jan 2018 11:02:24 +0000 http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/?p=35819 The little things add up during a huge life change. I’m talking about the annoying little things and (more importantly) the awesome little things. Little Things Add Up, “annoying” Before I took Samarah to school yesterday, she ran to the window and asked her Grandpa Bob, “What is that?” He laughed, then replied, “Well, that’s […]

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The little things add up during a huge life change. I’m talking about the annoying little things and (more importantly) the awesome little things.

Little Things Add Up, “annoying”

Before I took Samarah to school yesterday, she ran to the window and asked her Grandpa Bob, “What is that?” He laughed, then replied, “Well, that’s snow falling.”

There are huge life changes, and then there all the little life changes that you don’t even think about until you’re in the thick of that huge life change.

So many things I have forgotten about, and right now they are primarily all winter-related.

It’s cold. I completely forgot just how cold it gets. In California, I never had to keep a scraper in the car. And in California, keeping my canister of disinfectant wipes in the car 24/7, 365 was okay. I just bought a canister last week, and yesterday they froze in the car so when I went to grab one, it was crunchy.

I forgot that the kids have no clue what winter is all about. Sam slipped and fell on the way out from preschool, and it really scared her. It takes approximately 4 hours and 22 minutes to get all three kids dressed and ready to go out to the car…..just to run an errand. Hats, mittens, boots, big coats, the whole 9 yards.

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I forgot that, when you go to the gym in the winter, you have to wear boots and bring workout shoes along. You can’t just wear said workout shoes to the gym because they would make a huge mess all over. And speaking of the gym, I forgot that when you leave, the sweat in your hair freezes, too. Yeah, it’s gross.

I also forgot that just stepping outside causes cracks in the hand’s skin. Everything is so dry, and the name of the game is to moisturize, moisturize, moisturize. (Which is also why I stocked up on face moisturizer, hand cream, and tint skin hydrating foundation.)

There are so many little life changes I’ve experienced already that seem kind of annoying. Even if it wasn’t currently winter, I’d be finding little annoyances everywhere.

And yet, these little things, while annoying, haven’t actually bothered me much at all because on the flip side are all the little awesome things you don’t think about during a huge life change.

Little Things Add Up, awesome

Like last Sunday. My cousin and I went shopping for awhile at a mall in the suburbs of Minneapolis. It started with us leaving to go shopping. At her house, there were so many people that I could easily leave the kids with and not have to worry. I can, literally, probably count the number of times, on one hand, I was able to do that in California.

And then, as soon as we got to the mall and were walking into the Nordstroms door, I saw a woman and a small child come out. The woman was sort of looking down, but I thought to myself, “I know that’s Kristi!” The woman looked up, and sure enough, it was one of my three best friends in Minnesota and her youngest child. Again, I could literally probably count the number of times, on one hand, I was that excited to see someone I knew at the mall, while we lived in California. 

Finally, during my short-lived shopping trip, I bought 2 pairs of jeans at Nordstroms, a pair of pajama pants and five pairs of underwear. At checkout, I thought they charged me incorrectly because the total amount seemed smaller than what I was expecting. I looked at my receipt then remembered, “The price on clothes – what you see is what you get. We don’t have clothes tax here in Minnesota.”

When I go anywhere in this town and see someone I haven’t yet seen there is always

We are so glad to have you guys back.

How is your mom doing?

Please stop by our shop anytime.

We are praying for your dad daily.

Is there anything we can do to help?

We are looking forward to meeting your sweet babies.

I mean, and on and on and on. Every. Single. Day.

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Little Things Add Up

Sure, there are little annoyances that occur during huge life changes, but there are also little nuggets of pure, golden joy.

All these little things have added up in ways I never imagined they would when we made this decision to move.

I am doing my best to never focus on how little things add up in negative ways sometimes (ahem, like how I’m still living out of suitcase!), but instead, how they add up in the most beautiful ways.

I haven’t taken for granted – not for one second – all of the good that exists during and in this season of change.

Xox,
SKH

If you don’t have time to read these posts daily, but don’t want to miss them, be sure to follow via Bloglovin’ and/or join my personal e-newsletter HERE. I am doing my best to send a once per week email recap of prior week’s posts.

These posts will all live under “Wellness+Lifestyle” and also tagged with “101 Days of Blogging.” The 101-day series runs from Monday, January 8, 2018, through Wednesday, April 18, 2018.

If there is a topic surrounding change that you would love for me to include in this series, please just CONTACT ME.

Previous 101-Day Change Series Posts

  1. Beginnings are Scary
  2. Change Pain Point
  3. Making Sense of Change
  4. Gratitude Journal
  5. Love Your Baby Girl

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I still love you more than anything in the world. Love your baby girl.

I was going to be a country singer from the time I was like 5 years old.

Some people can’t understand what I’m about to tell you, but this was real life.

There is a town even smaller than the one where I grew up (and now live). It’s a town my high school marketing teacher used to say, “don’t blink or you’ll definitely miss it.” The town has less than 1,000 people in it and goes by the name Meriden, Minnesota. 

Back in the day (it no longer exists), there was a tiny bar in that little town. I have no clue what the official bar name was because we knew it as, “Marie’s Bar.” Very early on (not as young as 5, but definitely before Junior High) I frequented that bar. Most of the time, it was my mom and dad and aunt and uncle, Diane and Jim. They took my brother and I and our two cousins. 

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The bar had a jukebox. Diane loved playing that song, “There’s a Tear in My Beer,” and on repeat, country music played. 

As time went on, I kept on singing. 

My mom would buy country sheet music. She would play, and I would sing. Don’t tell my dad, but I know he loved listening to us from the other room.

never was any good at the organized school choir unless the music had a country twang to it or was a straight-up country song. I could get solos if it was a country song, but otherwise failed miserably.

And even though I’ve never made anything of myself with country music (I don’t have a fraction of the talent needed), you will find me singing country music every single day, all the time. 

Whenever change happens in my life, I always turn to music as one of my most coveted outlets. During both happy and sad changes, I always have a song that screams to me. 

I have written several down during these past several months.

And I’m going to share them all with you during this series.

Starting with Baby Girl today.

Love Your Baby Girl

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For the past 11 years, every single d#@% time this song came on the radio, my eyes swelled with tears.

To know me – to actually know me is to know that I can be strong and determined and maybe even off-putting and rude at times, but if you know all that about me, then you also know I cry easily. Like really easy.

While gone from my mom and dad these past 11 years, this song made me cry in the strangest of ways.

When I’d hear, “it’s a long way from here to the place where the home fires burn” from the very beginning, it would all start.

And then, “two thousand miles and one left turn” because that’s about the distance it was from California to Minnesota.

The chorus played over-and-over, “Well I love you more than anything in the world. Love, Your baby girl.”

And by the time the song ends, I missed home and them more than anything,

What ta ya know we made our dreams come true!
And there are fancy cars and diamond rings
But you know that they don’t mean a thing
They all add up to nothing compared to you
Well, remember me in ribbons and curls
I still love you more than anything in the world.
Love,
Your baby girl

The song’s ending always brought me back to my dreams of moving out West, how I begged them to let me go to college in LA. And when they didn’t let me, I made it my goal to find a company who would move me there upon college graduation. And I did, too.

I left and headed out West. And then eleven years ago, I left again for the second time. But somewhere along the line, I realized that none of it meant much of anything – none of it added up to the things that were back home all along.

When I talked about this change – being back with family – as, by far, the most welcomed change, I was not kidding. Mom and Dad, my 30th

For the past several months I’ve been singing this song and mostly the sad tears have been replaced with happy tears.

p.s. This picture of my parents was when they visited me in California for my 30th birthday. That was almost 4 years ago. And yes, mom and dad, I do love you more than anything in the world.

Sugarland

They say this town
The stars stay up all night
Don’t know, can’t see ’em
For the glow of the neon lights
And it’s a long way from here
To the place where the home fires burn
Well, it’s two thousand miles and one left turn
Dear Mom and Dad,
Please send money, I’m so broke that it ain’t funny.
I don’t need much just enough to get me through.
Please don’t worry cause I’m alright
I’m playing here at the bar tonight.
This time I’m gonna make our dreams come true
Well I love you more than anything in the world.
Love,
Your baby girl
Black top, blue sky
Big town full of little white lies
Everybody’s your friend, you can never be sure
They promise fancy cars and diamond rings
All sorts of shiny things
Girl, you’ll remember what your knees are for
Dear Mom and Dad,
Please send money, I’m so broke that it ain’t funny.
I don’t need much just enough to get me through.
Please don’t worry cause I’m alright
I’m playing here at the bar tonight.
This time I’m gonna make our dreams come true
Well I love you more than anything in the world.
Love,
Your baby girl
I know that I’m on my way
I can tell every time I play
And I know it’s worth all the dues I pay
When I can write to you and say
Dear Mom and Dad,
I’ll send money, I’m so rich that it ain’t funny
It ought ta be more than enough to get you through
Please don’t worry cause I’m alright
I’m staying here at the Ritz tonight
What ta ya know we made our dreams come true!
And there are fancy cars and diamond rings
But you know that they don’t mean a thing
They all add up to nothing compared to you
Well, remember me in ribbons and curls
I still love you more than anything in the world.
Love,
Your baby girl
Baby girl
Baby girl

Xox,
SKH

If you don’t have time to read these posts daily, but don’t want to miss them, be sure to follow via Bloglovin’ and/or join my personal e-newsletter HERE. I am doing my best to send a once per week email recap of prior week’s posts.

These posts will all live under “Wellness+Lifestyle” and also tagged with “101 Days of Blogging.” The 101-day series runs from Monday, January 8, 2018, through Wednesday, April 18, 2018.

If there is a topic surrounding change that you would love for me to include in this series, please just CONTACT ME.

Previous 101-Day Change Series Posts

  1. Beginnings are Scary
  2. Change Pain Point
  3. Making Sense of Change
  4. Gratitude Journal

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Even though most things are out of our control, I have found that showing gratitude and writing in a Gratitude Journal daily always finds the silver lining.

In 2016, I started a Gut Healing Bullet Journal, and ever since then, I never went back to a standard planner again. But once I healed immensely in 2017, I stopped using the Bullet Journal strictly for gut healing. 

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I then started using a standard Bullet Journal. THIS is the one I have. I’d love to share with you all the pieces that make up my Bullet Journal, and how I’ve gone about it, but for today, I’m focusing on one page – the Gratitude Journal portion.

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It’s simple, at the end of each month, I reserve a page titled, “Daily Gratitude.” Along the left side of the page, I write down each day of the month, giving enough space for one line of gratitude per day. And at the end of each day, I write down just one line of gratitude. 

No matter what, every single day, I am thankful for something. Sometimes it’s something big, and other days it is as simple as, “The sun.” 

I have read that you should write at least 5 things at the end of each day that you’re thankful for or set aside time at night to give deep thoughts around it. I wanted both of those to work for me, but they didn’t. And when long-winded didn’t work, I crafted my Gratitude Journal in a way that would allow me to keep with it each day – because I think it’s important – really important – to find the beauty at the end of each day.

Here are 4 things writing and feeling gratitude each day can do for you:

  1. Lower stress. Because showing gratitude puts things into perspective.
  2. Help find the beauty in each day.
  3. Focus on what really matters.
  4. Act as a “happy place.” Whenever you need a boost, you can always go back to those pages filled with lines of gratitude and you’re bound to smile.

Especially during times of change, but throughout all of life, the Gratitude Journal is a lovely constant.

Do you keep a Gratitude Journal?

Xox,
SKH

If you don’t have time to read these posts daily, but don’t want to miss them, be sure to follow via Bloglovin’ and/or join my personal e-newsletter HERE. I am doing my best to send a once per week email recap of prior week’s posts.

These posts will all live under “Wellness+Lifestyle” and also tagged with “101 Days of Blogging.” The 101-day series runs from Monday, January 8, 2018, through Wednesday, April 18, 2018.

If there is a topic surrounding change that you would love for me to include in this series, please just CONTACT ME.

Previous 101-Day Change Series Posts

  1. Beginnings are Scary
  2. Change Pain Point
  3. Making Sense of Change

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I’m still not sold on the idea that there is a definitive way for making sense of change, but I am certain that there are many ways for going about it.

Yesterday after I dropped Samarah off at preschool, I noticed something I never have before. To my left was the convent, and then beyond that a lake. Beyond the lake and to its right, I noticed a house. And then a couple houses. There was one that stuck out – it was beautiful from what I could tell. I never knew it existed.

I mean, I think I always knew it existed because I have driven around that lake hundreds of times likely, but I never saw the house from that view before.

As I drove off, I thought about how I have taken this place for granted nearly my whole life. 

Making Sense of Change

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I am seeing things for the hundredth time, and yet most of the time, it feels like I’m seeing them for the first time. My lens is different, completely different, now.

With all the changes currently happening, it’s nice to be able to focus on opening my eyes to things that are seemingly different, yet have been there all along.

And maybe that’s the key to embracing change. To recognize its existence, but to look beyond the actual change for things you might not have ever known, seen, or appreciated until the change itself happened.

It’s the little things during a time period of change, regardless if that change is large or small, wanted or not wanted, that you begin to notice in new ways.

And it’s within these little things that I am making sense of change.

Xox,
SKH

If you don’t have time to read these posts daily, but don’t want to miss them, be sure to follow via Bloglovin’ and/or join my personal e-newsletter HERE. I am doing my best to send a once per week email recap of prior week’s posts.

These posts will all live under “Wellness+Lifestyle” and also tagged with “101 Days of Blogging.” The 101-day series runs from Monday, January 8, 2018, through Wednesday, April 18, 2018.

If there is a topic surrounding change that you would love for me to include in this series, please just CONTACT ME.

Previous 101-Day Change Series Posts

  1. Beginnings are Scary
  2. Change Pain Point

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Change Pain Point http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/2018/01/08/change-pain-point/ http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/2018/01/08/change-pain-point/#respond Mon, 08 Jan 2018 11:28:27 +0000 http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/?p=35759 Today is the official first day of my 101-day series on change. The kickoff was yesterday, “Beginnings are Scary.” And I promise you that even though this post around the change pain point feels somewhat doom and gloom, that’s not my intention for the series – at all – not even a little bit. But […]

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Today is the official first day of my 101-day series on change. The kickoff was yesterday, “Beginnings are Scary.” And I promise you that even though this post around the change pain point feels somewhat doom and gloom, that’s not my intention for the series – at all – not even a little bit. But towards the end of 2017 when I knew I wanted to do this series, it all stemmed from the place where these deep changes began taking place.

My intentions are to share how this major change transpired, and that sort of starts from the beginning – last May. 

In May, I knew we were moving from California back to Minnesota.

The night before I left California for good, I had dinner with most of my favorite girls in California. Almost immediately upon arriving, I grabbed a drink at the bar (of course – one last Tito’s Vodka + water + a splash of something at my fave place in downtown Tracy), and my friend Stephanie then asked, “Okay, so tell us, what are you most excited for about moving home to Minnesota?”

December 2017 Catch Up Over Bone Broth sarahkayhoffman.com Rebecca, Tami, SKH, Stephanie The Commons California goodbye

I sat there for a few seconds to think about it.

So many things flashed through my mind….all the things I was excited about, and the things I was sad to leave behind. But overwhelmingly, one thing surfaced.

I said, “I am most excited for family.” And then, my voice cracked and I began to cry. LORD. Go figure – it was all beginning. My intentions were not to cry that night, but I couldn’t help it.

I continued on, “Honestly, what I am most excited for has now become my pain point.”

Change Pain Point

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Since that day in May when I knew moving back to Minnesota would soon be a reality, the one main thing I kept talking about and coming back to was watching my children play out at my mom and dad’s house. Finally having the opportunity to see my mom overjoyed with their voices and my dad ecstatic to show them his beloved yard – the wide-open space, and his passions.

I pictured it over-and-over again. All the time I felt I had “lost” with my mom and dad would now be recuperated and restored.

Even just a few short days before my dad’s diagnosis I had asked if my mom and dad could look at a rental house for us so my dad could be sure he’d be able to be our “handy-man-fixer-upper.” 

Family, both Ryan’s family, and my family were the number one reason for wanting to move back. 

I never wanted to raise my children where the love of my mom, dad, and JJ were not.

But that which I was most excited for has now become my pain point.

My dad has seen all three babies since we have been home. He’s tickled Samarah, and laughed at Maya’s attitude. Last week he spent a couple hours watching as Isaiah opened Christmas gifts and played with his “Bing, Bong, Boo” Peppa Pig bus (on repeat for an hour). 

Change Pain Point sarahkayhoffman.com Isaiah Christmas 2017 gifts with dad

But….it’s not the same. 

It’s winter and the kids have all been fighting with a strange, little illness (the flu for less than 24 hours and mild colds). And what that means is that I don’t dare bring them out to my parent’s house because my dad cannot get sick. Not then, and especially not today (chemo is starting – for sure).

By now, the kid’s would have seen and played with my dad a ton. He would have gotten out their singing Elmos, and fed them junk food galore. He, my mom, and I probably would have done something basic like the local Legion for a drink or five on New Year’s Eve. Christmas morning would have meant a lot more energy, and several glasses of the traditional frozen Margaritas he, JJ, and my mom have. Change Pain Point sarahkayhoffman.com dad, Samarah, tickling Christmas 2017

I waited 11 years to come home to Minnesota. If you were to ask Ryan or anyone in California who asked me, “Why are you most excited to move back?” They would have all told you the same thing for why I was most excited.

Family. Always family.

Now, and as I’m working through and on embracing change, I’m feeling this excitement through a very deep pain point.

And that’s what I am realizing about change that I had never quite noticed before. Not all change is created equally. Some changes are welcomed with open arms, they are exciting and feel freeing. And some changes mean that the change is simultaneous with a pain point. It’s not welcomed. 

Whether it’s welcomed or provides pain, the only thing consistent in life is change.

And we must absolutely learn to breathe through it, stay positive with it, and embrace it.

p.s. I have decided to link up all previous posts at the end of each post so you can follow along in order if you’d like. You will find them below.

Xox,
SKH

If you don’t have time to read these posts daily, but don’t want to miss them, be sure to follow via Bloglovin’ and/or join my personal e-newsletter HERE. I am doing my best to send a once per week email recap of prior week’s posts.

These posts will all live under “Wellness+Lifestyle” and also tagged with “101 Days of Blogging.” The 101-day series runs from Monday, January 8, 2018, through Wednesday, April 18, 2018.

If there is a topic surrounding change that you would love for me to include in this series, please just CONTACT ME.

Previous 101-Day Change Series Posts

  1. Beginnings are Scary

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Beginnings are Scary http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/2018/01/07/beginnings-are-scary/ http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/2018/01/07/beginnings-are-scary/#comments Sun, 07 Jan 2018 13:43:01 +0000 http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/?p=35729 Beginnings are scary. They are really scary.  This past week was up-and-down. It felt incredibly exciting and amazing one minute and then like a total heartbreaking s#$% show the next (chemo “started” on Thursday, but then didn’t start). Samarah had her first day at her new preschool in Minnesota on Wednesday. How is this for […]

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Beginnings are scary. They are really scary

This past week was up-and-down. It felt incredibly exciting and amazing one minute and then like a total heartbreaking s#$% show the next (chemo “started” on Thursday, but then didn’t start).

Samarah had her first day at her new preschool in Minnesota on Wednesday.

Beginnings are Scary sarahkayhoffman.com Samarah first day of Montessori Minnesota preschool

How is this for awesome? Her classroom is the exact same classroom I was in for the first grade. 

Samarah wasn’t scared for her first day at all, not even a little bit. I told her, “You’re going to have a new Marsha and new friends like Colbie, B, Colton, Henry, Grace, and Hazel.” (Her preschool teacher and friends in California.)

When I picked her up the first day, I asked her, “How was the day, baby? Did you like your new teacher? Did you meet new friends?” 

She said she liked school, and the teachers, but then she said, “But mama, there wasn’t a Colbie or Colton there.” I told her, “No, no Sam, there won’t be the same Colbie and Colton, but other sweet kids just like them who will become your friends, too.”

She thought about it for awhile, and confirmed, “All the kids were nice.”

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I know how Samarah feels. Nothing is the same, and yet everything is okay and (for me) so many things are the same as ever.

It’s hard to understand what I mean by that, but this town (population roughly 9,000), this “new” place and home for us isn’t, in fact, new at all.

I was born and raised here, and a large portion of my family still resides here. I went to Catholic elementary school here, and then middle school, junior high, and high school. I played ice hockey here and drove around for hundreds of hours in run-down cars and minivans with my friends here. I even knew Ryan my whole life here in this little town, and then later in life Ryan and I were married here – at that Catholic church. 

There is nothing new about this place and yet I, too, feel like Samarah – it’s not the same as the life I’ve known for the past 11 years in California.

Samarah will adjust quickly. 

I think I will, too.

And yet beginnings are scary – currently, in 1,001 ways. 

Tomorrow begins my 101 day series on change and I’m diving in headfirst with my 2017 mantra to embrace change.

I’m not promising that every single day is going to be a 300+-word blog post. In fact, some days (depending on the day and life), the post might only be a few words. I believe this is all a part of embracing change, though, and showing you through my own life that sometimes (eh – most of the time) good enough is enough.

If you don’t have time to read these posts daily, but don’t want to miss them, be sure to follow via Bloglovin’ and/or join my personal e-newsletter HERE. I am doing my best to send a once per week email recap of prior week’s posts.

These posts will all live under “Wellness+Lifestyle” and also tagged with “101 Days of Blogging.” The 101-day series runs from Monday, January 8, 2018, through Wednesday, April 18, 2018.

See you tomorrow. 

Until then, we all do our best to smile big and bright like our little Samarah.

p.s. If you’re also a blogger and would like to do your own 101-day series challenge, I’d encourage you to try. In 2015, I laid out the pros and cons of blogging for 101 days straight. You can read the post HERE. Spoiler alert: there were many more pros than cons. Let me know if you decide to run your own – link up with this post so I can see it and follow your posts as well.

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Xox,
SKH

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Beautycounter Countermatch Collection http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/2018/01/06/beautycounter-countermatch-collection/ http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/2018/01/06/beautycounter-countermatch-collection/#respond Sat, 06 Jan 2018 11:49:00 +0000 http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/?p=35103 The Beautycounter Countermatch Collection is back, and I have been told that it’s better than ever! And by “better than ever,” I mean that people used it in the past and they are saying it’s better than ever. I don’t personally know that fact because I never used it before. I am using it now, and […]

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The Beautycounter Countermatch Collection is back, and I have been told that it’s better than ever!

And by “better than ever,” I mean that people used it in the past and they are saying it’s better than ever. I don’t personally know that fact because I never used it before. I am using it now, and I will say that I’m totally loving it.

In fact, I haven’t shared much Beautycounter information in a hot minute, but there’s a great reason for it.

I have, instead, spent the last month purchasing several new products and testing them out. 

Here was my latest Beautycounter orderBeautycounter Countermatch Collection sarahkayhoffman.com December 2017 Order skincare makeup hand lotion

  1. Hand Cream in Citrus Mimosa (Pump)
  2. Sheer Lipstick (Twig color) 
  3. Daily Conditioner
  4. Touchup Skin Concealer Pen (Light) 
  5. Matte Bronzer (No. 1) 
  6. Color Pinch Cream Blusher (Hibiscus) (already used this, reordered)

And before this last order, I had 2 other back-to-back orders, both of which included an item from the Beautycounter Countermatch Collection. Beautycounter Countermatch Collection sarahkayhoffman.com Countermatch Adaptive Moisture Lotion

  1. Countermatch Adaptive Moisture Lotion
  2. Smoky Eye Trio (it was a holiday item and no longer available)
  3. Color Outline Eye Pencil in black

Beautycounter Countermatch Collection sarahkayhoffman.com Countermatch Eye Rescue Cream

  1. Tint Skin Hydrating Foundation – Linen
  2. Countermatch Eye Rescue Cream
  3. Lip Gloss – Bare Shimmer

I could tell you something about every single one of those products, but the ones at hand for today are Countermatch.

Beautycounter Countermatch Collection

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3 reasons why I LOVE the Countermatch collection:

  1. Countermatch uses a Bio-Mimic Technology, which Beautycounter developed by identifying the most potent and beneficial elements from plants that mimic skin function and structure. Squalane derived from green olives draws moisture into the skin and restores elasticity. Arginine, which is found naturally in beetroot, provides nutrients for vibrant, healthy skin. And phytic acid sourced from green rice helps skin breathe for a natural glow.
  2. It keeps skin within the optimal hydration zone for nearly 24 hours, while many other moisturizers peak early in the day then steadily fall below the ideal range.
  3. Countermatch Adaptive Moisture Lotion has a unique composition that matches the natural structure of the skin. And it instantly absorbs, making skin look refreshed, vibrant and radiant.

As you saw, I have used 2 of the products from the Countermatch Collection so far. 

Countermatch Eye Rescue Cream

Ladies – I’m not going to sugar coat it. My eyes need help! I bought this, and I’m loving it. I think it’s starting to help brighten the old under-eye area up already and I haven’t even been 100% consistent with it. 

Product Benefits

  • Moisturizing formula energizes tired eyes
  • Easily absorbs so makeup glides on smoothly
  • Minimizes under-eye shadows
  • Ophthalmologist tested, safe for contact lens wearers

Why it’s Safer

Countermatch Eye Rescue Cream is formulated without the use of formaldehyde, a potentially carcinogenic preservative commonly used in eye creams which has also been linked to detrimental effects on the immune system. Formaldehyde can also be listed as formalin, formic aldehyde, merthaldehyde, methanol and oxomethane.

How to Use

Use morning and night. Lightly pat around eye area until fully absorbed. Beautycounter Countermatch Collection sarahkayhoffman.com Safer skincare

Countermatch Adaptive Moisture Lotion

I lean towards dry skin, which is why I chose this face lotion. 

Product Benefits

  • Leaves skin refreshed, vibrant, and radiant
  • Helps skin function at peak performance
  • Lightweight formula absorbs quickly
  • Adjusts hydration levels throughout the day to keep skin within the optimal hydration zone for 24 hours

Why it’s Safer

The Countermatch Day Cream naturally adapts to your skin’s hydration needs resulting in smoother, more even skin without the need for silicones or synthetic polymers.

How to Use

Apply to face, neck, and chest after cleansing. Pairs perfectly with your favorite facial treatments, including serums and oils.

Alright, I’ve given a ton of information today. I could go on-and-on-and-on…..I have been loving Beautycounter, and I won’t stop sharing all the information with you. I am always happy to answer any questions you might have, so never hesitate to EMAIL ME. Seriously. I get emails and questions daily about anything and everything, and I always respond.

If you’re interested in hosting a virtual social via Facebook, your blog, etc., I’d love to help you set one up (of course there is incentive for you!). Just reach out for more information.

More soon…..it’s winter – especially here in the frozen tundra of Minnesota, so I want to share with you why hydration is super important. 

p.s. If you don’t think the Countermatch Collection is right for you, but you are still on the hunt for a safer skincare line, this might help. Beautycounter Countermatch Collection sarahkayhoffman.com Essential Nourishing Safer Skincare

  1. Nourishing Essentials Collection
  2. Countermatch Collection
  3. Countertime Rejuvenating Collection

Xox,
SKH

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