Just like Jacob, Sweet Baby Girl

Last night while she was sleeping in my arms, I was flipping through my Facebook feed when I came upon this video from another girl who was in our Adoption classes.

Tear after tear fell on her as I (simultaneously) watched the video and looked down at her so calm, so peaceful.

I re-visited it this morning. There are so many similarities to she and Jacob.

I want her to know these someday when she’s old enough to understand.

Just like Jacob, Sweet Baby Girl

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, “we tried to have children for the past nine five years.”

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, “I couldn’t wait to see what the next 12 hours would hold.” (That’s about how much time we had to prepare for your homecoming, too.)

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, “In a matter of hours, for years what I have wanted and prayed for is going to happen.” (We wanted and prayed for you for so long.)

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, I watched the minutes pass as I drove to the hospital to get you. (I turned the radio up loud while my heart beat fast. Your dad was not with me. He was flying in from Utah.)

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, “what a privilege it is in a smaller way, a human way, to live out the truth of the Gospel.”

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, “The peace and joy that we’re feeling is absolute evidence of hundreds of people praying for us.” (Literally, we have had so many people praying for us, for you, for a very long time.)

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, my stomach reverts to those butterflies as I made my way through the hospital, to the NICU, right where you were. (I was quivering.)

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, “It’s hard to believe that these might be the last few minutes of us just being a family of two.”

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, when I saw your amazing tiny body laying there my heart burst with tears, joy and emotion. (In that moment I could not believe our whole new world was just inches away from us.)

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, “we waited so long to meet you.” (So. Long.)

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, “like the most beautiful baby I’ve ever seen.” (I never knew a baby could look so beautiful. This I promise you.)

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, on your birth certificate – your “tag” – your identity was “Baby Girl.”

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, instantaneously you belonged to us.

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl, “We prayed for a child, but in our prayers there wasn’t a face and there wasn’t a name. We just prayed for a child.”

And my most favorite part…..

Just like Jacob, sweet baby girl,

It wasn’t just a child that God intended to bring into our family. And those years of waiting weren’t just because God decided he wanted us to wait an arbitrary number of years, go through an arbitrary experience. All those years and all the waiting and all those prayers were for him – for Jacob you- for our son daughter.

I questioned God for a long time. I wondered why things couldn’t be on our time. Why they were taking so long. What was wrong with us? What was wrong with me? But everything is beautiful in its time….

You were the perfect gift from God, and it’s all starting to make sense…..

Love your guts,
SKH

Comments

  1. Judy says

    Such a beautiful story for both Jacob and his family and your sweet baby girl and your family…there was not a dry eye here as I watched jacob’s story this morning or read yours this afternoon…

  2. says

    This video made me cry. I am not sure I will be having babies the “traditional” way, and adoption has always been something that is on the table for my husband and I. This is just such a beautiful beautiful moment!

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