I told you yesterday I’ve come to hate my workouts.
There are only two main reasons for this, and the ever-so-awesome Proctitis is one of those reasons.
When I had surgery about a month ago, I let you in on my painful secret….the one where I described the intense pain I get with intense workouts.
Debilitating, yes. Life threatening, no.
After the diagnosis that it was not endometriosis but just another reminder of the lovely Colitis, I stumbled upon this (CAUTION – weak stomach? Proceed at your own risk. Or just suck it up, butter cup. Knowledge is power. Even stinky, grotesque knowledge.)
Suddenly it’s all starting to make perfect sense.
Proctitis affects the rectum. And with your own two eyes, you are able to easily see that the rectum is so close to many of the female organs.
I am not a doctor, and so I’m not going to theorize why I get these debilitating cramps during intense workouts mid-cycle and during cycle, but here’s what I do know:
- There are about 10-20 days per month when this could happen to me. Cycle days 7-17 and 24-2.
- My mind goes back-and-forth with: ‘”It hasn’t been like this my whole life. But then again I was never this intense. And then again it “started” around the time I was “diagnosed.” What triggered it? I can’t remember….was it sudden or gradual over time?“‘ <– it’s a never ending battle for my mind.
- Instead of finding the cause, one doctor told me, “It hurts. You don’t workout. It’s as simple as that.” That used to infuriate me. It still does. But on a very basic level, he was right.
- I am 87 days into my 101 days of gut healing. I have never felt better in my whole life.
A couple weeks ago I went on an am walk with my friend Jen. We were discussing her sweet dog who, like me, also has IBD. (Don’t think dogs are exempt from gut misery.) Anyways, she was telling me how her dog started to get better (she is extremely diligent with making homemade food!) until one day when she was out running around and working too hard for too long. After that, the problems all came back. Two steps forward, one step backwards.
An exhausted dog, an exhausted gut….so now we’re like dogs. Seriously.
IBD flares with stress. And even though I’ve known this all long, I brushed it off as, “but I’m not stressed when I’m working out intensely.”
That’s the thing about stress and IBD –> I can’t walk into the gym and say:
‘”Dear body, dear Colitis: now I’m going to put stress on you, extreme stress via this workout. But it’s okay because I’m not feeling anxious during it. No “stress.” This is just for fun.”‘
Intense workouts are in fact a stressor on the body.
With everything that I know and all the changes I’ve felt my body go through, I am now confident that perhaps doctor was correct,
It hurts. You don’t workout. It’s as simple as that.
No matter what it is or why it’s happening or any other answers that I’ll never stop seeking, the one thing is for sure….
My body is over the stress of intense workouts, and while I hate admitting that, the truth always sets us free.
Love your guts,
p.s. “Icing” on the cake: reason number 2 up next.