….and then like magic, I do.
This is what I say to Samarah every single day. And I truly believe it. I have no idea how on Earth I could ever love her more, but then day-after-day, smile-after-smile, like magic, I do.
As I rocked her to sleep last night and held her tight and smiled at her beautiful, precious face, it occurred to me how grateful I feel for the plans which were never mine.
This grace that I felt with her and for her had me remembering how there are a million Samarah Josephina’s out there in this big world who did not fall asleep to a mama wondering how on Earth she could ever love that child more. There are millions of children who might never get to experience all that a child should know.
Those are the things which now break my heart.
It’s funny how things change, since not being able to get pregnant used to be the thing that broke my heart daily.
I no longer wonder about an unborn child, but instead about the millions who are here and whose own, little hearts break daily waiting on love.
These things have been stewing and brewing in my heart since we got Samarah. At the time, neither Ryan nor I knew what to do with it. We let it sit. And sit. And sit.
A few weeks ago, our mission began to surface, the one where we are living like no one so that we can give like no one else. But giving doesn’t have to start once we “have enough money.” As a matter of fact, did you know that “80% of humanity lives on less than $10 a day?”
Giving starts now, little-by-little.
I will not be able to adopt all the children in the world, but it is my hope, through A Loving Spoon nut butter that we are able to help foster and/or orphaned children in whatever way we can. We announced this yesterday via, “Begins with Love, and 10 cents of Each Jar Purchased.”
I now understand things about life and about children and about love and heartbreak that I could have never known even a year ago. These things I am now able to understand have made my mission so much more clear.
Samarah will always know just how loved she is, how much we wanted her and how she was that little light in our eyes long before we ever met her.
We will take her along on this journey with us, and we can’t wait for all that it will hopefully bring to so many children’s lives.
I hope you’ll follow along, and join us…..or just eat peanut butter, because it’s basically the same thing
Love your guts,